I start my new job on Wednesday. Pudge spends his first day at daycare tomorrow (only for a few hours) to see how we adjust to being apart. I typically drag his chunky lil buns every where with me. This will be painful for my heart at first, but we will both get used to it.... eventually.
I did not want to put my baby in daycare. I wanted to make the best I could from working at home. I have to do what is best for MY family, and right now to keep up with bills and life in general..... its back to work.
It is not a job. I could go to Mcdonald's and get a job.... Im headed off in to a career. Great pay, Great benefits...... I am feeling really good about it all......................................................................................
Except the daycare.
He is MY child. I am supposed to be taking care of him. I am supposed to be teaching him right now..... but I cannot take care of him if we cannot pay the bills or buy food right? So, in order to take care of MY child..... I will have to make sacrifices and take my son to a small (4child) daycare.
It will hurt my heart. I think I came here to rationalize it all in my head and heart.
They are great, caring, loving, wonderful people who I already know, and have known for a long time. I know they will take care of my child as if he is their own.
NOW... the real heart breaker is out of state training for TWO WEEKS!!! But, this is a chance I cannot walk away from..... its too perfect.... the hours, the money, the atmosphere....... 2 weeks will hurt. It will really hurt.... but Im gonna borrow a laptop and keep pictures of the boys all over the place with me. Talk nightly etc...... its only 2 weeks after all.
(Im gonna need some support during those 2 weeks, so if you happen to be a beautiful pair of women, with beautiful children, a sexy hubby and have been here for me sooooooo much this last year plus....... lol expect your phone to ring, me crying on the other end...... )
K, I think I had to just empty the ol brain......... Gotta go eat some home made beef stew!
3 days till school is out!
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Oh Heather I know this is hard for you BUT it will be in some ways good for Pudge also to spend time away from you and to learn to socialize with other children. I wish you the best on your career!
we will be here... :)
peace...
It will be hard at first but with this new career opertunity you will be able to do more for your kids.
Sorry I haven't been around for a bit but life has been catchimng up to me to.
You can slap me silly next time you see me.
Right then I am off to catch up, I saw some pictures I need to see.
Take care and don't worry about Pudge, when he is with you I am sure you will make it uyp to him with heaps of hugs and squeezes :)
it will all work out in the end. you do what you have to do and just make the time you do get to spend with your kids count. peace~art
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